Making Maybe
Photo by : Judah Mikah
Maybe was a song written while I was writing for Sunset Roulett’s Exhale album. It was the ballad in consideration for the track list. There was a very rough demo ready. When Judah listened to it, she said “I think this is yours.” I was hesitant to take on a song by myself but if you listen to Sunset Roulett at all, critical decisions are almost always made by Judah, and she’s always right. By the time we get close to finishing a song I am usually so deeply drenched in the repetition of it from the writing, lyrics and production time that she has a clearer ear than I do. I’m taking the scenic route to just say, I trusted her and put it in the queue for an EP I had been simultaneously working on. Maybe ultimately became the lead single for this EP that will be released in the coming months alongside by book as the “Soundtrack to Smokescreen.”
Maybe is a prologue in the form of song for my poetry book Smokescreen. The imagery in the video is pulled directly from the context in my poems and is symbolic of people, emotions or memories. This whole project will be released in pieces. Maybe is just the opening scene. It unlocks my smokescreen. It’s a song that can weep with those who weep. It’s part of my personal testimony through music and words. As I’m flipping through the journal in the video, the pages have excepts of both lyrics from the song and poems from my book. The petals (panic petals is how I refer to them) represent layers of my heart and mind that are shedding and painful memories I need to let go of but tend to hang onto. This narrative runs thick through Smokescreen — it will bring the whole story together.
Making Maybe : Behind the Smokescreen
